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Azusa Hayano and the Aokigahara Forest

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WARNING! THIS VIDEO AND BLOG POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC MATERIAL THAT MAY BE DISTURBING TO SOME VIEWERS. PARENTAL DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Meet Azusa Hayano. He is a geologist that studies volcanic eruptions and the plantation at the foot of Mt. Fuji. He became a part of a documentary about the infamous suicide forest called the Aokigahara Forest.

Sometimes I get fascinated by very creepy locations all over the world. Abandoned amusement parks like the Spreepark in Germany, a left to rot island known as Hashima Island or Gunkanjima, and other places that give me the tingling spine.

I stumbled over the word (青木ヶ原) Aokigahara and got very curious about what it is, and it turns out it is a forest next to Mt. Fuji. But the sad and creepy part is that it’s a very popular location for suicides. The deaths were so bad that they had to have signs that try to prevent suicides such as “think of your family” and “life is precious”. It makes me sad seeing this beautiful forest being a place for the corpses. It is a disturbing topic even for me, but there is something about this documentary video that truly fascinates me.

It was the man in the documentary that got my full attention; Azusa Hayano.

  • I do not see any well known T.V. celebrities
  • I do not see any soldiers doing what they can for their country
  • I do not see any licensed motivational speakers
  • I do not see any writers
  • I do not see any priests
  • I do not see any super heroes

All I see is Azusa Hayano; a geologist that studies volcanic eruptions and the plantation of Mt. Fuji… and something else.

In the video, he discuses what he saw when coming to the forest. He pointed out an abandoned car that has been left out for months and months. It’s a sad reason why it’s been abandoned.

Next part is when he showed us the signs preventing the suicides. I personally could not believe they had to put up signs for that. If Aokigahara is known for that, then I have virtually found one of the saddest places in the world. Most of you already watched the video, but I would like to take the time to type out what I’ve learned from Mr. Hayano.

The forest held some of the most deepest and darkest secretes about weather or not people want to die. Tents, tapes, messages, signs, signals, and anything that doesn’t involve a noose is what Azusa would say that they are still undetermined weather or not they want to die. He told us that he met a person that tried to hang himself. The other person said that it was too painful and he did it with his feat touching the ground. Azusa told him not to do it again and the guy had a long talk with him and swore not to ever do it again. He calmed down he said and didn’t feel like dying.

A yellow tent was later shown in the middle of a path not for the locals. Azusa approached the tent and then a conversation occurred between Mr. Hayano and the man in the tent.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes.” *zips up and hides inside the tent*

“You’re not aloud to camp here.”

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m the Natrual Guard… I’m on suicide patrol. How long are you staying?”

“Until tomorrow.”

“Do you have food with you?”

“Yes, I do. I’m sorry.”

“I just hope you’re okay. I’m just trying to prevent suicides. Please take this way back.” *points right*

“I’m sorry for the trouble.”

“Take your time to think, be positive. It was nice meeting you.”

The more they talked, the more Azusa saw the man’s spirits slowly getting back. But his heart still felt sick; he was worried about the man in the tent and wanted to help. I believed that the more Azusa went on exploring the forest, the more discoveries he found in the world he sees. He made a statement that says:

“I think the way we live in society these days has become more complicated. Face-to-face communication used to be vital, but now we can live our lives being online all day. However, the truth of the matter is we still need to see each other’s faces, read their expressions, hear their voices, so we can fully understand their emotions. To coexist.” – Azusa Hayano

I truly saw it in him that he said that within his heart, it tells me that anyone can be who they want to be and still have a kind heart. When discussing more about the corpses and how it’s just bones and clothes, he then came up with another amazing saying.

“I think it’s impossible to… die heroically by committing suicide.” – Azusa Hayano

The Samurai did it in honor for they did not want to die by the sword of the enemy. But like Azusa said, it does not show any heroic moment in suicide by honor. If I were to become a legendary Samurai warrior, I would live on and will keep fighting till the end. Luckily, I am not like the Samurai. I will not kill. If there are many things I have learned about the Samurai, one of them is the Seppuku; the name for the suicide ritual. Sad for them to give it a name. In my theory, I had the thought of this as a cowardly act in order to not get killed by the enemy. For that I feel very sorry for the warriors. Azusa was right when it’s impossible to die heroically by Seppuku. In the modern times, death by sword is optional, now there are many ways to die by one’s self. All of it is done with no heroic action at all. It gives out pain to others all around no matter who it is. Those who have a kind and sweet heart like Azusa Hayano would think about others and all the troubles that go on daily, which is why we face them all like heroes and heroines.

At the end of the documentary video, Mr. Hayano saw flowers, chocolates, chips, and a book. Believed it’s all from the deceased’s family, he made one last statement which was his final words on the video.

“You think you die alone, but that’s not true. Nobody is alone in this world. We have to coexist and take care of each other. That’s how I feel.” – Azusa Hayano

What else can I truly say about that? Mr. Hayano gave me the vision of the entire world filled with life; human life. The species lives on forever since the beginning of the entire life cycle… unfortunately our kind is not enough for our same kind. People can be picky on who to coexist with who and I had to undergo ultimate rejection by others who were the same age as me. It’s all in the “autistic” symbol that makes most people back off. In reality, I can be like everyone else. Nobody is alone in this world. We all have to take care of each other… to coexist as a population of one. I want to point out the part where he said: “That’s how I feel.” Once he said those four little words, I easily found his heart in doing the documentary. He didn’t have to say those kind words on camera or even end it with “That’s how I feel.” He would of said hardly anything when encountering the flowers, chocolates, and all the other things the family placed for the deceased person in the forest. But I saw his heart into his words. Especially when he wanted to help the man in the yellow tent.

I have been writing my book Populaion: One Autism, Adversity, and the Will to Succeed for a while, and after writing the manuscript I came across this man on the internet. I always think it’s wrong to find things interesting on the web. It’s unnatural for humans to discover new things just on a screen. He said earlier that people can coexist by hearing each other, seeing, each other, touch each other such as shaking hands and hugging. All of these social discoveries I want to discover for myself as well as seeing new things in the real world. Meeting Azusa Hayno and give him a hug for being such an inspirational man. Because he doesn’t experience volcanic eruptions on a computer, he studies them because that’s his job and that’s what he wants to do.

I can really relate to this man because before seeing his video documentary I did something that’s a little similar. It was at The Grand Night Out; a party after graduation. I was on a boat back to Bainbridge and wanted to look around outside the boat, bow and stern. When I was looking around, I found two people alone outside. The two individuals used to go to my grade school almost all the time so I was familiar to them. They looked a little lost, sad, and upset. I wanted to help.

“Excuse me friends, you two look lonely out here. Wanna go inside and play some games, eat, drink, and dance a song or two?”

“We’re talking!”

“Okay. Sorry about that. I am here to help. Take care now.”

Then I went back inside. I didn’t really see them talk as much really. It seems that it is true that people know how to think of many ways to say “go away” instead of talking about what is going on. I always feel like I want to help people have a good time. I saw kids inside having a great time with happy faces, and whenever I see others with no happy faces then it makes me sad. I can almost tell when people aren’t happy. My parents can easily tell, then I put my experiences in comparison to my peers. “I am here to help” is what I always want to do.

There are many people who “started out with nothing”. It bothers me because the deffinition of that is usually poor and come from a harsh environment. Others who are born rich are well known and seems like they are somebody to the world. It made me came up with:

“Everyone starts out with nothing. Nothing but souls.” – Tyler McNamer

Doesn’t matter if we are rich, or poor, we are all the same. No one is alone in this world.

“I think the way we live in society these days has become more complicated. Face-to-face communication used to be vital, but now we can live our lives being online all day. However, the truth of the matter is we still need to see each other’s faces, read their expressions, hear their voices, so we can fully understand their emotions. To coexist.” – Azusa Hayano

This is to the Aokigahara Forest. We all must coexist peacefully. I am sorry for the troubles that happened to the individuals that died in the forest and I am very sorry for the loved ones that lost their friends and family members in the forest. I want everyone to learn from the geologist Azusa Hayano; his thoughts, wisdom, and kindness in a certain documentary video about the Aokigahara.

Life is truly the reason why we exist. It keeps us alive. I am one of the individuals that can help see the fact that everyone can come together as a population of one.

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Email: tamcnamer@hotmail.com

Facebook User: Tyler McNamer https://www.facebook.com/tyler.mcnamer?ref=shnm

Facebook Pages: Tyler McNamer & Population One https://www.facebook.com/pages/Tyler-McNamer/567546559923089?ref=br_tf & https://www.facebook.com/pages/Population-One/447186555354031

Twitter: @TylerMcNamer https://twitter.com/TylerMcNamer

Kickstarter: Population: One Autism, Adversity, and the Will to Succeed http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/tylermcnamer/population-one-autism-adversity-and-the-will-to-su-0?ref=live

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I’m an average dude with casual lay back stuff to do when needing a good rest from school and work ya know. I’m just like everyone else, but I do take my work seriously. 😉

Evolution of Classmates

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There is that crazy theory that the evolution of man started off as apes. To me that’s silly because I see chimpanzees in the zoo and all over the world.

I do believe that there is some sort of evolution in the world, and it comes from the closest people that have been with us since elementary school.

The evolution of classmates.

I guess you can say that there is an evolution of man and woman in this case and I’ll tell you why with my experience.

This evolution does not occur to everyone, but I guess you can say that to certain people that have changed over the years.

I have been in school for a long long time. It counts as a third home for me because back then I saw my classmates as brothers and sisters. Some were loving to me, some were mean to me; and even those who were mean to me I would forgive them with love. Back then I isolated myself because I did not know how to have fun. But it was my teachers and most importantly the classmates that showed me what fun is when it comes to being in the school doors or outside during recces. I would pick flowers and give them to the classmates, teachers, and all the other staff members of Wilkes Elementary. I was a shy boy, and wanted to make people happy. I am still like that today. Shy sometimes, and always want to make people happy. The classmates back then had flavor, character, joy, and were very friendly. That’s why I viewed them as my brothers and sisters. Doesn’t matter if anyone were blind, deaf, autistic, handicapped, or diabetic. Everyone was treated as a part of a whole.

In Bainbridge, we had a Intermediate school called Sakai. Grades 5 through 6. Things slowly changed. New friendships evolve. Nothing wrong with having new friends, but even that is dangerous sometimes. New friends equal peer pressure. They were not the same as the elementary school days. But they still had those fun creative minds during Intermediate school.

Woodward Middle School, it was the same thing with Intermediate school. Probably because it was just 7th grade to 8th grade. Small, and not as big as High School or Elementary school. The dances on that school were fun, enjoyable, and creative. It was back in the day when kids didn’t discover the grind if ya know what I mean. Even when kids do that stuff, they get told not too by the teachers. Great job I should say. Well taught.

High School I would say as the school of freedom. Because it’s such a big school, there are less staff members then there are kids I think. With that, the kids who are at that age, they can do whatever they want. New friendships evolve, and peer pressure overcame the kids. I remember the time when the kids who were at my elementary school; they were creative and fun. They taught me how to have fun with others. In high school, there were 2 kids that were in my elementary school, and they became ASB officers. (Associate Student Body) I discovered that they weren’t as creative then back then. They didn’t think of others except for themselves. Themselves, and their own friends that were on their own grade.

I always wanted to have fun in High School, and want to make people happy. I remembered having a dance contest, it was the only dance contest were 1 of every grade would dance for the ultimate prize. I won the dance contest with a tremendous victory and won the prize. Then I gave the prize to the Freshman that participated in the dance contest. The Senior students looked and secretly said “whatever” or “huh”. But the Freshman grade and Sophomore grade were surprised and excited to see the Freshman getting the prize because I gave her the prize.

Throughout the years ever since 5th grade, I always wanted to be with the people who were at Wilkes Elementary. They showed me how to have fun with others, but as the years go on, people change physically and mentally. Used to be smart but now dumb. I am not talking about getting good grades, I’m talking about kindness. Used to be fun and friendly, but now it’s mean, and picky. I was known as “The growth of the Invisible Boy.” That is what one of my chapters is called. As the years go on, I become more invisible. I even would say “hi there” but no response.

Because I wanted to be part of that group, even bullies would rise once again. A couple of girls thought I was a stalker because of that one time I liked a girl back in 1st grade through 5th grade, and they kept hold of that moment as something bad. I do not stalk on other people. Besides that was way back in the day when we didn’t know much better and went on with our little lives. I guess that’s the tough part about growing up, people remember you for something bad and not so much on the good. I complement them for remembering the past, but it’s the good stuff that needs to be talked about more often.

This does not mean that they should be my only friends. I’ve got 2 of the coolest people that I’m proud to be called friends. They are in the kickstarter support video. As a matter of fact, it’s interesting because with the “Wilkes Kids of 05”, they have changed so much, but for me, I will never change my heart. I change my looks like clothing and hair, but I will never change my heart and mind. I have told them 64 times that I want to be with them and that they showed me how to have fun, but they never listen to me; and that is very sad for them to not see what I am trying to give to the world. Wanting to make people happy, wanting to teach people to be true to themselves, and I feel that the Wilkes Kids of 05 proved a great resource for my observation in the world and the evolution of manhood and womanhood.

If I was even more honest with myself. I had harsh feelings for the Wilkes Kids of 05 for not treating the lower grades greatly and for treating me like I was nothing. You could say that I have a love/hate relationship with those students because of how they changed so dramatically. I would help them with something, but I don’t get any appreciation. It makes me sad and angry when they aren’t fully true to themselves when it comes to kindness.

The evolution of classmates starts with kindness and creativity, then goes back to mean and lame. For me, because I can’t change my heart and mind, I start out as a whole, then goes instantly to nothing. Especially when seeing my familiar face everyday.

But once I sell this book to the Wilkes Kids of 05, I hope that they will open themselves up to me, and show their true selves to the world with me. I hope to take them to new levels of exploration of life and with me, become a population of one.

“Population One” The Kickstarter Project We Love (Article by an unknown author on the ASD Update.)

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Normally I review books that are already published, but this one is special, and I can’t wait to receive my signed copy.
Mcnamer is a young man with a story to share. Well, more than a story. In his book “Population One”, Tyler describes his unique experience living a life with autism.  Tyler discusses the obstacles he has had to overcome, as well as the benefits of his autism. Most people familiar with autism know that every individual is unique, and it’s always rewarding to add another perspective to my point of view, but Tyler gives us something more.
Tyler doesn’t just describe his experiences, he gives answers and advice to those who may be seeking more than just a captivating read. “Population One” tackles issues like bullying with conflict resolution and leadership skills. Tyler teaches how to embrace change and build confidence through teamwork.
“Population One” is all of this, but it’s different. The thing that intrigues me about population one is Tyler’s philosophical perspective. Tyler goes on to write about what “Population One” means, and how he isn’t referring solely to himself. His perspective on our social construct, and how the patterns therein can be applied to the rest of the universe are captivating and thought provoking.
Tyler McNamer has crafted a book that is a must read not only for the autism community, but anyone who wishes to learn more about autism or even themselves. Watch Tyler’s video for his project, and you will see why I funded him through Kickstarter. Tyler is a fascinating person, whose dedication and drive should be recognized by the autism community. Please help us to share his story.
http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/tylermcnamer/population-one-autism-adversity-and-the-will-to-su

Teen launches Kickstarter to fund book about his life with autism (From www.thenewstribune.com) [A newspaper company]

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Tyler McNamer didn’t start to speak in full sentences until he was about 10, his father, Jody, remembers. Now, as a senior in high school, Tyler has written an entire book, an exploration of his life with autism.

“Instead of speaking, writing was the way he always expressed himself,” Jody said.

The book, “Population One: Autism, Adversity and the Will to Succeed,” took Tyler a few years to write. In it, he details his experiences and perspectives from someone diagnosed with autism at 18 months old.

“Because this book is about my life with autism, I want to show people what it’s like to be inside an autistic mind,” Tyler said. “To show people and to help people.”

The manuscript is now complete, and the McNamers have created a project on Kickstarter.com, the crowd-sourced funding website for independent books, films, businesses and more. Their goal is $25,000, to be raised by May 26, to fund the book’s printing, distribution and an online monthly magazine, called Autism Works, that would feature writing from other autistic teens and adults.

“They have so much to teach us,” Jody said about his son and others with autism. “When you read the book, it’s full of stuff you’d never think about. It’s brilliant.”

McNamer lives in Gig Harbor but attends Bainbridge High School, where his mother lives and where he’d developed a comfortable community at school. He grew up speaking little, first uttering recognizable words when he was about 6.

Tyler wrote down his thoughts in a notepad he carried with him at school and remembers first being captivated by a writing assignment in third grade. From there, Tyler slowly started to develop an individual voice, along with, as his father described it, a progression toward understanding that he viewed the world differently than did most others.

In the past three or four years, Tyler said his writing has taken off as he sought to articulate that worldview.

“One of my challenges has always been finding my words and putting them together,” Tyler said.

More than 40,000 words later, and after working with a publishing coach, editor and cover art designer, Tyler’s book is ready for distribution. The McNamers hope their Kickstarter fund can offset some of the costs of those services, as well as help with the primary goal of getting “Population One” into schools.

“We want to help teachers understand how to help kids with autism,” Jody said.

He added he thinks his son has tapped into something both important and unusual that will be of real assistance to educators and others who want to reach out to those with autism.

“It’s hard to find someone who can actually verbalize what it’s like to have an autistic mind,” Jody said, describing as an example scenes in the book about Tyler’s photographic memories from when he was only 11 months old. “And Tyler has that ability.”

Tyler said the title “Population One,” explains a perspective he’s come to in reflecting on his life with autism, and how it can serve as a lesson for all readers.

“For a lot of years, Tyler spent a lot of time in his own world, and he’s come to the realization that he can interact with others,” Jody said. “We all struggle with that, to have tolerance and acceptance for everyone.”

“Everyone has their own little world, a population of one,” Tyler said. “But no one is ever alone, and they can choose to share in someone else’s world. There’s only one universe. That’s what I’m trying to say with this book.”

The “Population One” Kickstarter project had 57 backers and had raised a total of $3,681 as of press time. Click here to visit the Kickstarter page, and here to visit Tyler’s website and personal blog.

Book Update March 30th

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Book Update March 30th

Everyday, I am always excited about this book finally being done. It’s sad to say it is not been done yet. Although most of it is finished.

Everything that’s on the inside is nearly finished, only a couple edits here and there, and the cover is close to being done. Me and my team are doing the best we can.

The subtitle will be called…

Autism, Adversity, and the Will to Succeed

The Rainbow Seed

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In a faraway farm, there lived a little boy named Ted. Friends called him Teddy for his nickname. He lived in an old broken home with his mom, Susie, in the middle of nowhere. They couldn’t see any flowers surrounding them—nothing but dry land and a roadway to the store.

Then one day, Teddy decided to walk around the mountains with his friends when he met an old man. “Hello, young boy!” said the man. “I am Old Man Harry. I want to do something good for you and your mom.” Then Harry brought forth a beautiful brightly colored seed that changed color over time. “What is it?” asked the boy. “It’s a Rainbow Seed. I want you to plant it,” replied the jolly old man. The boy Teddy had never planted a seed before, so Harry took him down from the mountains and showed him how to plant a seed. “You see, young fellow, you place the seed in the ground; you water it once in awhile, make sure the sun shines down on the seed, and let it grow over time.” So Old Man Harry gave Ted the rainbow seed and left with a warning, saying, “Remember, boy; this seed is gifted; you will be up for a big surprise,” and off he went into the distance.

Teddy rushed home to tell his mom about what had happened and she got excited about the seed. They both went outside right at the back side of the house and planted the colorful seed.

Then all of a sudden, the seed grew a huge rainbow and stretched far over the fields. It was a hot and sunny day, so the sun melted the rainbow slowly. With the rainbow melting, the droplets from the rainbow turned into little seeds and went straight to the ground. With that, the seeds quickly turned into rainbow flowers. They had different colors of flowers everywhere all over the fields.

Teddy and his mom, Susie, were so happy to see all that happening to their field, and they began to smell the scent of the flowers all over. People all over got to see the flowers, and everything was just amazing for the boy and his mom, all thanks to a little seed that needed to be planted.

The End

2003 Tyler McNamer

The Big Web Picture.

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The first thing that most people might say in mind is: “Why is Tyler’s picture so big?” In response… I asked the same question on why the picture is so big. Well, I guess we can blame it on my Dad, Jody cause he made the website, and I still thought it was so amazing for my Dad to make this website for me to blog on. I just wanted to say thanks again for this website. Still, while coming to this website, I kept on thinking why my picture is so big.

After staring at my face for a while, I’ve thought of something cool and amazing.

Tyler

Tyler

As you can see, it is not photo-shopped or edited or anything like that because my tiny uni-brow is still there. (To tell you the truth, I hate uni-brows  they make me look silly.) I still have little facial hair on me even though I did one of my closest shaves. I got little holes all over my face because when I was 9, I had one of the worst cases of chicken pox, and it was really bad.

Of course, this picture is going to be edited or remixed, but I’m going to keep this one for the blog for other reasons.

In fact, believe it or not, right when I was finishing up that paragraph, my Mom came into my room telling me that the picture must be photo-shopped. I said sure, it would be done, and she also said that this is business related, I said that’s true, and it would be done soon.

Anyways, what I can see by this big web picture is a boy. A boy smiling. Everything in it’s natural and not edited or photo-shopped. Anyone who come across this not knowing that the pictured boy had autism would think of him as a regular person posing in front of the camera, in front of the leaves.

I believe that when people want to be an inspiration on others or to be a motivational speaker, or even a rock star member, they should have smiles on their faces. It’s impossible to force a ‘good’ smile, because then it would be ugly. Think of something amazing and makes people happy and then fill it with the smile. That’s what I think when it comes to a happy face.

I was thinking of that cool old BMW motorcycle. I forgot what year it was or what the model is called as a matter of fact, but it was really cool, and it made me happy.

I think this might be the reason why my Dad put this picture up and why it’s so big. It’s like a sign or something. Only my Dad Jody can explain why, but it’s cool to come up with reasons why things happen.

Why it’s up there? Possibly because…

  • Natural looks, and no edits on facial features
  • Unique because of the size
  • Smiling to the readers of this blog
  • Looking stylish for the fans

There are a lot of reasons why everything here for anything, but there’s going to be some true answers.

Hello my Friends.

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Welcome to my new website Population: One. My name is Tyler Allan McNamer.

This website is named after my upcoming book called Population: One. As of today, it is still in the process of publishing and hopefully will start selling this month. I wrote everything in the book, my editor helped me with my spelling and grammar, and my cover designer is in the works of creating my book cover. I have a great team working on this book with me.

My book is going to be about me talking about how I see things in the universe including the planet earth. There are a lot of people who see the world differently, but for someone who has autism, it’s a whole new experience.

Why hear it from me? Because in my childhood, I saw things that people never saw before. I began reading before talking. I understood the words but didn’t have the ability to say them yet until I was 3. I had the ability to start writing a book at age 17. I am now 18 and will be turning 19 on the 10th of July.

I am looking forward to sell this book starting in Seattle and Portland and then soon all over the world. I will soon become a professional speaker for adults, teenagers, and kids as a motivational speaker; because I believe that when your a cool young dude like me who likes to have fun, it’s possible to get people pumped up on inspiring themselves for the better with or without autism. I… just said what teenagers would say when wanting to have some fun. That’s alright, it’s okay to be excited about the future. Right now, I’m focusing on the book… and high school.

Follow me on my blog and enjoy my friends.