Colors

As I mentioned in chapter 25, I used to think that “rainbow” was one color. Turns out I was just being cute and said that all colors are amazing, but everyone has their favorite single color so I chose red.

This article is like the one about the numbers. The numbers have their own meanings, colors are the same thing. Whenever I eat M&Ms’, they have their own colors, and sometimes I like to choose certain colors to eat. I like to eat the blue and brown ones because it reminds me of one of my favorite cartoons Beavis & Butthead.

Blue itself is a great color. I tend to like it more often when looking up at the sky, and looking at the cover of my book. My Dad likes the color blue, so I’m glad to say that blue is my second favorite color.

White! Color of the snow! I love snowboarding, so without a doubt, white is another great color of mine. I would say that every color is great, but you know, everyone has their favorite single color.

One of the reasons why red is my favorite is because that is the color of strawberries! Can’t turn down the strawberries. Color of leadership, courage, and willpower as they might say. See, that’s the thing about color, it brings in certain moods. I went to color-wheel-pro.com to look at different colors they have describing different meanings for each one.

Light red represents joy, sexuality, passion, sensitivity, and love.
Pink signifies romance, love, and friendship. It denotes feminine qualities and passiveness.
Dark red is associated with vigor, willpower, rage, anger, leadership, courage, longing, malice, and wrath.
Brown suggests stability and denotes masculine qualities.
Reddish-brown is associated with harvest and fall.

Dark orange can mean deceit and distrust.
Red-orange corresponds to desire, sexual passion, pleasure, domination, aggression, and thirst for action.
Gold evokes the feeling of prestige. The meaning of gold is illumination, wisdom, and wealth. Gold often symbolizes high quality.

Dull (dingy) yellow represents caution, decay, sickness, and jealousy.
Light yellow is associated with intellect, freshness, and joy.

Dark green is associated with ambition, greed, and jealousy.
Yellow-green can indicate sickness, cowardice, discord, and jealousy.
Aqua is associated with emotional healing and protection.
Olive green is the traditional color of peace.

Light blue is associated with health, healing, tranquility, understanding, and softness.
Dark blue represents knowledge, power, integrity, and seriousness.

Light purple evokes romantic and nostalgic feelings.
Dark purple evokes gloom and sad feelings. It can cause frustration.

White means safety, purity, and cleanliness. As opposed to black, white usually has a positive connotation. White can represent a successful beginning. In heraldry, white depicts faith and purity.

Black is a mysterious color associated with fear and the unknown (black holes). It usually has a negative connotation (blacklist, black humor, ‘black death’). Black denotes strength and authority; it is considered to be a very formal, elegant, and prestigious color (black tie, black Mercedes). In heraldry, black is the symbol of grief.

Fascinating isn’t it? It may have those meanings, but sometimes I like to compare the colors to favorite cartoon characters, or comparing colors to national flags around the world, or even the colors of people’s books and stick to them sometimes.

I really like the colors of my book. Blue is kinda the main color of the book. I stick to it. Favorite color is red, but if this was a red book, it would kinda change the mood now would it? Blue is more peaceful than red… so blue is the color for the book.

Next to the numbers being placed on race cars, colors really bring an impact to the car’s display. I would probably have my car painted in blue and brown just for Beavis and Butthead. Ha ha ha! Or I’l just go for red for strawberries.

Another thing I’ve learned about colors is that they all can be mixed together to form a new color! Red and yellow make orange, green and blue make turquoise. There is no such thing as a bad mix of colors because all colors have their own looks and charming characteristics… which is kind of the same thing. Same thing with us humans, everyone has their own skin color, doesn’t make them any different for who they are, just the skin is all different, and that’s alright with me. I’m pail white, used to think tan was the color in order to be cool. Then I learned that tan skinned people only look cool when they are born with it.

Like I said on the book, when people have their own worlds, their planets show off their colors in relation to the owner of that world’s favorite color.

My planet still remains red… it can change to purple. Or blue. Or orange and yellow… or any color if it wants to. Heh heh. 🙂

Book Update 9/3

Book release: Today!

For now, it is released locally on Bainbridge Island at Eagle Harbor Book Company, and is available for purchase by readers everywhere.

You can also purchase the book online through Amazon.com.

Here is the link: http://www.amazon.com/Population-One-Autism-Adversity-Succeed/dp/1938686543/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1378245080&sr=8-1&keywords=Tyler+McNamer

 

Thank you again for your patience!  I am excited for people to read my book.

Giving Thanks to the New Sponsors of my Book (Book Update 7/26)

Awesome amazing stuff has been happening! I got the book all finished, it’s been all put together, and best of all, it’s been supported by these wonderful people who put their hearts into funding my book. These people will be mentioned in the book as proud sponsors and I give them all a very special thanks to these people.

Andre Martinez
Anita Willsey
Brenne Schario
Brian Walker
Bridget Hughes
Callie Bayer
Carl Middleton
Carrie M. Cone
Charles Strobel Zittel
Cheri Hayashi
Chris Petersen
David Brimhall
Delinda Jokela
Elizabeth Helbig
Fawn Colombatto
Fletch Newland
Fred Rea
Gina
Jamie Penrod
Jason Baker
Jennifer Smyth
Jerry Desmul
JJ Pawlowski
Laura Kern
Margaret Westcamp
Matthew G Llewellyn
Maureen McDonald
Mike Roe
Myra Walker
Patricia Adams
Rawson Hirschel
Rebecca Dawson
Rod Arakaki
Rodney Simpson
Steve McNamer
Susan Ross
The Huey Family
Wendi Weith

In showing my appreciation to these people for the support, I will give them the first addition of my book AS WELL as an autographed copy PLUS a comforting message in the book handwritten by me.

As of 7/26, I am still waiting for the printer to print out 200 books. The printer is in California, and I will receive all of the copies in my hometown of Seattle Washington. I can not promise any dates of my book release to anyone yet, but we will let everyone know when my copies will be available to sell locally and online.

Thank you again for the amazing support. I hope to bring a humongous impact to the autism community… and to something else.

Scenery before Sleep

Seattle, Washington

Seattle, Washington

I live near the Seattle area, and when I see the city at a good angle, it reminds me of my toddler days.

When I was little, sometimes I would have trouble falling asleep, so sometimes when my mom and I were coming home from shopping or from school, she would say:  “Tyler, do you want to see the city?” and then I’d say: “Oh yeah yeah!” and then we drove to an area where I could see the entire skyline of Seattle, and every time it made me fall asleep.

The way my head works and what helps me go to sleep is that I want to see a beautiful image of some sorts so I can keep that image in mind.  It’s like seeing the City of Seattle and it’s \ the last thing I want to see before shutting my eyes tight. I don’t do this every time I go to sleep, but sometimes, even today, if I have trouble sleeping I would want to see something gorgeous.

Sounds and music tunes help me sleep too.  The realistic scenery is something I’d love to hold on to my eyes until I fall asleep. Ever had a scene you just want to keep for a long time?   To me, I think that’s how great dreams come into play is the amazing thoughts we have during sleep.

What do you think about before you go to sleep?

Numbers

 

No alphabets

1234567890
0987654321

I find numbers to be easy to understand then the alphabet. English is one of the hardest languages in the world. There, their, they’re… too difficult. Numbers have a lot of meaning in my opinion, that’s why I’m “pretty good” at math. Pretty good because I’m not very good at coming up with answers really quickly. I have to think it out sometimes.

I’ll tell you why numbers are pretty cool. There are ten numbers that go on for a long time. 0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9. Then there are two numbers that come after 9 which is 10. There’s the numbers 1 and 0 and it goes over and over again. Just like the weekends; Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday… just the like the months- well you get the idea.

 

Go-Karts

Go-Karts

 

I love to play video games, I really like playing racing games that have the race cars with the numbers on them. I have a game where you can slap your own number on the race car. I honestly thought pretty hard about the different numbers that could be on my collection of racing cars. I couldn’t slap the same number because that would be boring. So I thought of reasons why my numbers matter for the cars and all the other stuff that could use numbers using two digits or less.

  • 57: Count my letters. T-Y-L-E-R (5) M-C-N-A-M-E-R (7) Important number on my opinion.
  • 32: I had an email account called excitebike32@gmail.com. 3 years old when playing the video games, 2 excitebike games; one for NES, one for N64.
  • 3: My Dad has two siblings, and my Mom has two siblings.  Each set of grandparents had three children.
  • 94: Born on the year 1994. The year Tekken and Killer Instinct got into the arcades.
  • 7: July; birth month.
  • 10: Birth day
  • 13: Graduated high school in 2013
  • 20: Ten toes, ten fingers… balance! 20!
  • 1: I am number one… just kidding, a lot of people love that number for many reasons.

The list goes on and on! There are many numbers I can think of that are important to me. If I can think of 3 digit numbers, then it would be…

  • 557: T-Y-L-E-R (5) A-L-L-A-N (5) M-C-N-A-M-E-R (7)
  • 780: First three numbers of my old phone number. An interesting combination of numbers. 7 has the most syllables then any other number. 8 has two “o”s stacked on top of each other. 0 has unlimited corners just like the 8, but 7 has three corners and two sides, just like it has two syllables.

The list continues. So anytime I race in a driving simulator like Gran Turismo, I would pick the numbers that are cool and unique to me. If I were in a real race car, I would have a blast picking the numbers and most importantly racing around the track.

Moments and meanings are all numbered. What are your favorite numbers?

Book Update 6/19

The kickstarter.com project is fully funded!

The money goes straight to the printer and will soon print over a hundred copies of my book Population One: Autism, Adversity, and the Will to Succeed.

This does not mean that the copies will be printed right away, on the kickstarter.com project there are 8 days left. With those 8 days, everyone will have the opportunity to be mentioned as a bronze sponsor for my book and will have their name added in the book as a trusted loyal sponsor.

After the 8 days, the opportunity will no longer be valid and the printer will print the copies of my book.

Now is the chance to be mentioned in the book and to praise for Population: One! Thank you for all the support.

Book Release: TBD

Azusa Hayano and the Aokigahara Forest

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgAHP4M84ZE

WARNING! THIS VIDEO AND BLOG POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC MATERIAL THAT MAY BE DISTURBING TO SOME VIEWERS. PARENTAL DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Meet Azusa Hayano. He is a geologist that studies volcanic eruptions and the plantation at the foot of Mt. Fuji. He became a part of a documentary about the infamous suicide forest called the Aokigahara Forest.

Sometimes I get fascinated by very creepy locations all over the world. Abandoned amusement parks like the Spreepark in Germany, a left to rot island known as Hashima Island or Gunkanjima, and other places that give me the tingling spine.

I stumbled over the word (青木ヶ原) Aokigahara and got very curious about what it is, and it turns out it is a forest next to Mt. Fuji. But the sad and creepy part is that it’s a very popular location for suicides. The deaths were so bad that they had to have signs that try to prevent suicides such as “think of your family” and “life is precious”. It makes me sad seeing this beautiful forest being a place for the corpses. It is a disturbing topic even for me, but there is something about this documentary video that truly fascinates me.

It was the man in the documentary that got my full attention; Azusa Hayano.

  • I do not see any well known T.V. celebrities
  • I do not see any soldiers doing what they can for their country
  • I do not see any licensed motivational speakers
  • I do not see any writers
  • I do not see any priests
  • I do not see any super heroes

All I see is Azusa Hayano; a geologist that studies volcanic eruptions and the plantation of Mt. Fuji… and something else.

In the video, he discuses what he saw when coming to the forest. He pointed out an abandoned car that has been left out for months and months. It’s a sad reason why it’s been abandoned.

Next part is when he showed us the signs preventing the suicides. I personally could not believe they had to put up signs for that. If Aokigahara is known for that, then I have virtually found one of the saddest places in the world. Most of you already watched the video, but I would like to take the time to type out what I’ve learned from Mr. Hayano.

The forest held some of the most deepest and darkest secretes about weather or not people want to die. Tents, tapes, messages, signs, signals, and anything that doesn’t involve a noose is what Azusa would say that they are still undetermined weather or not they want to die. He told us that he met a person that tried to hang himself. The other person said that it was too painful and he did it with his feat touching the ground. Azusa told him not to do it again and the guy had a long talk with him and swore not to ever do it again. He calmed down he said and didn’t feel like dying.

A yellow tent was later shown in the middle of a path not for the locals. Azusa approached the tent and then a conversation occurred between Mr. Hayano and the man in the tent.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes.” *zips up and hides inside the tent*

“You’re not aloud to camp here.”

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m the Natrual Guard… I’m on suicide patrol. How long are you staying?”

“Until tomorrow.”

“Do you have food with you?”

“Yes, I do. I’m sorry.”

“I just hope you’re okay. I’m just trying to prevent suicides. Please take this way back.” *points right*

“I’m sorry for the trouble.”

“Take your time to think, be positive. It was nice meeting you.”

The more they talked, the more Azusa saw the man’s spirits slowly getting back. But his heart still felt sick; he was worried about the man in the tent and wanted to help. I believed that the more Azusa went on exploring the forest, the more discoveries he found in the world he sees. He made a statement that says:

“I think the way we live in society these days has become more complicated. Face-to-face communication used to be vital, but now we can live our lives being online all day. However, the truth of the matter is we still need to see each other’s faces, read their expressions, hear their voices, so we can fully understand their emotions. To coexist.” – Azusa Hayano

I truly saw it in him that he said that within his heart, it tells me that anyone can be who they want to be and still have a kind heart. When discussing more about the corpses and how it’s just bones and clothes, he then came up with another amazing saying.

“I think it’s impossible to… die heroically by committing suicide.” – Azusa Hayano

The Samurai did it in honor for they did not want to die by the sword of the enemy. But like Azusa said, it does not show any heroic moment in suicide by honor. If I were to become a legendary Samurai warrior, I would live on and will keep fighting till the end. Luckily, I am not like the Samurai. I will not kill. If there are many things I have learned about the Samurai, one of them is the Seppuku; the name for the suicide ritual. Sad for them to give it a name. In my theory, I had the thought of this as a cowardly act in order to not get killed by the enemy. For that I feel very sorry for the warriors. Azusa was right when it’s impossible to die heroically by Seppuku. In the modern times, death by sword is optional, now there are many ways to die by one’s self. All of it is done with no heroic action at all. It gives out pain to others all around no matter who it is. Those who have a kind and sweet heart like Azusa Hayano would think about others and all the troubles that go on daily, which is why we face them all like heroes and heroines.

At the end of the documentary video, Mr. Hayano saw flowers, chocolates, chips, and a book. Believed it’s all from the deceased’s family, he made one last statement which was his final words on the video.

“You think you die alone, but that’s not true. Nobody is alone in this world. We have to coexist and take care of each other. That’s how I feel.” – Azusa Hayano

What else can I truly say about that? Mr. Hayano gave me the vision of the entire world filled with life; human life. The species lives on forever since the beginning of the entire life cycle… unfortunately our kind is not enough for our same kind. People can be picky on who to coexist with who and I had to undergo ultimate rejection by others who were the same age as me. It’s all in the “autistic” symbol that makes most people back off. In reality, I can be like everyone else. Nobody is alone in this world. We all have to take care of each other… to coexist as a population of one. I want to point out the part where he said: “That’s how I feel.” Once he said those four little words, I easily found his heart in doing the documentary. He didn’t have to say those kind words on camera or even end it with “That’s how I feel.” He would of said hardly anything when encountering the flowers, chocolates, and all the other things the family placed for the deceased person in the forest. But I saw his heart into his words. Especially when he wanted to help the man in the yellow tent.

I have been writing my book Populaion: One Autism, Adversity, and the Will to Succeed for a while, and after writing the manuscript I came across this man on the internet. I always think it’s wrong to find things interesting on the web. It’s unnatural for humans to discover new things just on a screen. He said earlier that people can coexist by hearing each other, seeing, each other, touch each other such as shaking hands and hugging. All of these social discoveries I want to discover for myself as well as seeing new things in the real world. Meeting Azusa Hayno and give him a hug for being such an inspirational man. Because he doesn’t experience volcanic eruptions on a computer, he studies them because that’s his job and that’s what he wants to do.

I can really relate to this man because before seeing his video documentary I did something that’s a little similar. It was at The Grand Night Out; a party after graduation. I was on a boat back to Bainbridge and wanted to look around outside the boat, bow and stern. When I was looking around, I found two people alone outside. The two individuals used to go to my grade school almost all the time so I was familiar to them. They looked a little lost, sad, and upset. I wanted to help.

“Excuse me friends, you two look lonely out here. Wanna go inside and play some games, eat, drink, and dance a song or two?”

“We’re talking!”

“Okay. Sorry about that. I am here to help. Take care now.”

Then I went back inside. I didn’t really see them talk as much really. It seems that it is true that people know how to think of many ways to say “go away” instead of talking about what is going on. I always feel like I want to help people have a good time. I saw kids inside having a great time with happy faces, and whenever I see others with no happy faces then it makes me sad. I can almost tell when people aren’t happy. My parents can easily tell, then I put my experiences in comparison to my peers. “I am here to help” is what I always want to do.

There are many people who “started out with nothing”. It bothers me because the deffinition of that is usually poor and come from a harsh environment. Others who are born rich are well known and seems like they are somebody to the world. It made me came up with:

“Everyone starts out with nothing. Nothing but souls.” – Tyler McNamer

Doesn’t matter if we are rich, or poor, we are all the same. No one is alone in this world.

“I think the way we live in society these days has become more complicated. Face-to-face communication used to be vital, but now we can live our lives being online all day. However, the truth of the matter is we still need to see each other’s faces, read their expressions, hear their voices, so we can fully understand their emotions. To coexist.” – Azusa Hayano

This is to the Aokigahara Forest. We all must coexist peacefully. I am sorry for the troubles that happened to the individuals that died in the forest and I am very sorry for the loved ones that lost their friends and family members in the forest. I want everyone to learn from the geologist Azusa Hayano; his thoughts, wisdom, and kindness in a certain documentary video about the Aokigahara.

Life is truly the reason why we exist. It keeps us alive. I am one of the individuals that can help see the fact that everyone can come together as a population of one.

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I’m an average dude with casual lay back stuff to do when needing a good rest from school and work ya know. I’m just like everyone else, but I do take my work seriously. 😉

Book Update 5/29

I’ll give you the update as of 5/29

The kickstarter.com funding attempt failed because time was up for that project to be funded all the way. So my Dad and I had an idea of restarting the project and work on a smaller goal of $5,000.

Book release: TBD

Here is the link that goes to the restarted kickstarter project: http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/tylermcnamer/population-one-autism-adversity-and-the-will-to-su-0?ref=live

Thanks again for the awesome support.